Wednesday, November 21, 2007

here i am singin 'without you' from mariah carey.. thinkin wat i've done in the past 20 years of my life.. thats right... NOTHING.. NOTHING GREAT.. and i kept thinkin wat good does my life make to mankind.. ok mankind is too big.. lets jus say to our country? ok still too big.. hmm, my friends and family? ok thats better.. yea so wat good does it make? and i figured its as good as not havin me around.. the only good i do is to waste ur rice..

thats y i need to buck up.. so much damage ive done in my life.. so many regrets..
so many things i wish i could take back.. which is obviously impossible.. theres only one thing left for me to do now.. and that is to start doin the changes.. good changes and stop bein a wussy..
ive done bein that for the past 20 yrs..

mo asked me y am i so nice to him about *stuff*.. i said im not bein nice to u alone.. and im not bein nice.. this is me deep down.. if u didnt know that, then u dont know me.. u've got me confused with someone else.. im jus doin wat i think is right.. and honestly, indirectly i think in this case, he has the right.. (this is a diff topic for another day)

and like wat had happened between the 2 adilahs.. there was a huge quarrell between 2 very big countries.. malaysia and china (speakin in a very chinese way).. i only did that not because i like u not because of i dont like steven.. its because i think thats the right thing to do..

anyway this is about me, so back to me..
maybe i shouldnt be so angry about things and how it works out for me.. and i shouldnt question why it has to be this way and not wat i want them to be.. if u know wat i mean.. nvm u'll get the point.. i jus wanna be a better son, a better friend a better student, a better everything..

for now i'd pray for a better me..
and try..

and this song is for the broken....

Those memories were sweet,

6:44 PM