Sunday, October 28, 2007

People think they know me..
People say they understand me..
People say they know how i feel..
People say this..
People say that..

but i dont think People know anything about me..
cuz all i hear from people is bull crap..

People pushed me..
People shoved me..
People think its funny..
People say hisham do this..
People say hisham do that..

But i dont feel its right to do that..

Those memories were sweet,

1:49 AM

Friday, October 26, 2007

August..

Being here without you causes so much pain

i dont know if i will ever see you again

if i never do, i need you to know

that you mean the world to me

you're all that i see

somehow when i gaze into your eyes

there was something i realized-

amanda's the person you chose

she's the one whom you wanna spend your life with

Its only the sea that keeps us apart

but i tell you, you're the only one in my heart

even if we dont stay together

you are the only one who'll be in my heart forever

I think of you always

i dont care what anyone says

You'll always have my heart no matter what

the times we shared were special, i had no regrets

i swear to you those memories, i'll never forget

Now you may not be my Mr right

I'm not going to give you up without a fight

i can do this if i try No more will i have to cry

i know someday we'll be together as one

although NOW i'll never have the satisfaction that i've won

You're the one i love

people can push and shove

but ill never go away

ill always have something to say

ill always come back to see you someday.

Dont worry im not gay..

i didnt wrote this..

Someone very special to me gave this to me a yr ago..

i know ure readin this

Those memories were sweet,

6:13 PM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

i feel like this blog is gettin old.. dying soon..
i jus didnt have the mood to update my blog..

wat we've missed..

mo and me got the prize money we won in that talentime. and we dont know wat to buy with it..
and we auditioned for this band edge thingy.. was the first band to try out.. we playedboson for the auditions cuz we know that we're very familiar with that song.. and on the day itself they told us that we got in.. i seriously want this acoustic band to rise.. anyway, yesterday was the actual performance day.. i think it went well. we played boston, take me away, face down, true by ryan cabrera, and crashed by chris daughtry.. crashed and true was kinda last min.. learnt true the day before and crashed on the day itself..

ohh ya before that.. Jess came back for like 6 days.. spent 2 whole days with her.. not exactly 2 days but 1 and half days.. went to have dinner with her cousin her sister, jon, rach and of course her.. met up with escape people.. only know like wat? 8 9 of them.. wah i think that sucks.. haha.. so yea.. miss her loads.. its been like wat? 1 yr ago since we last saw each other.. the next day we went to escape theme park she treated me.. greatly appreciated.. when will i see u again? will i see u again? damn its like a song already..

the thing about problems is.. my probs are my probs.. other people's probs are my probs too..
i cant stand to look at people when they're havin probs.. u know like wat shepherd told me before.. sometimes one can see it better than the one havin probs.. err something like that..

Those memories were sweet,

12:37 AM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

im so afraid to lose a good friend like him..
someone who thinks alike..
someone who i can laugh with or at..
someone who's always there to lend a helping hand whenever i needed them..
someone who i'd nvr betray..
someone who i always crap with like there's no fuckin tomorrow..
or no lecturer teachin in front of us..

but lately me and him hadnt talk as much like we used to..
laughed like we used to.. laughed at like we used to..
due to some circumstances..
and im afraid that something as bad
as the term 'no longer close friends' be used one day..
too scared that i try my best to let go any anger that i had in me..

i know sometimes i may act as though as im..
the 'big fuck' and act like a dick or a fuckin ego..
it doesnt matter and im sorry i really didnt mean it..
and i god damn know that its hard to find another friend like u..
pardon me if i sound as gay as can be..

and lately this someone has been gettin on my nerves..
im sure u know who the person it..
its not jus because of wat had happened recently..
ive felt this way back when everything was fine..
i may sound like a big jerk but fuck it..
u fuckin cheapo..

ok fuck this i didnt update my blog to talk about some cheapo..
i came to my blog to talk things to myself..
i wont be thinkin whether u'll rad this or not..

cuz i know u nvr come here anyways aha..

so afraid of losin a good friend like u radi..

Those memories were sweet,

11:16 PM

Monday, October 01, 2007

Yesterday was the last day of my contract with john little.. its kinda funny when i think back cuz when im workin i dont wanna work but when im not workin, i wanna work.. and now i miss johnlittle and all the staffs.. but today i gotta go down anyways.. to give my punch card, badge and the jlcard..

ohh ya btw.. i would like to say thanz to those who came down to singapore poly to support me, radi, mo and nadia for the talentime.. i really appreciate it alot.. afi, adilah, syu and amin.. thank u..

me and mo won 3rd.. :)

Those memories were sweet,

11:35 AM