Monday, May 28, 2007

I MISS MY HAIR!!

Those memories were sweet,

9:44 AM

Sometimes, i feel like only my guitar and the road can fly me away from reality..
Since reality is so shitty now.. Strummin my guitar or jus speedin my way to school, back home or anywhere else feels like im so far away from reality.. and sometimes it feels really great.. rather than jus thinkin.... why is it always me? why does she have to do that to me? wat did i do wrong?

and the song "way back into love" still feels like so nice when i still think of that movie.. cuz we watched it together.. we.. we.. we..
but as i noticed and everyone had noticed i wont type again..

i feel shitty
i feel shitty
i feel shitty
i feel shitty
i feel shitty
i feel shitty
i feel shitty

but then u came..
u came with arms wide open..
u came with a warm touch..
u came with good intentions of tryin to help me..
u came with a good heart..

u tried to make me happy again..
u tried to help me stand again..
u tried to be you..

and i feel so glad that at least someone cares..
not like someone i know who jus fuckin leave with no good reason
and hates u for no fuckin reason..
she hates me ok..
i know she hates me..
she fuckin hates me..
can i sing that song now from "Puddle Of Mudd"?
"She Fuckin Hates Me"?

can i?!

but then when i think again..

is this the real "Way Back Into Love"?

Those memories were sweet,

1:19 AM

Friday, May 25, 2007

Yesterday was a success i guess.. :)

i gotta thank Zie and Mannan for all the help..

thanks u guys are the best.. haha

to mannan: i think with ur baby, the bass will sound much better.. haha

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everthing i thought i knew

you are the one i loved

the one thing that i tried to hold on to....

Those memories were sweet,

12:02 AM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

when i feel lonely,

when i feel sad,

when u are jus not around,

i'll visit ur blog.. to read ur post over and over again and nvr grow tired

to jus listen to ur blog song relax my mind to thinkin that u are still here

tomorrow u'll come back.. but goin away again? y so soon?

Those memories were sweet,

11:01 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007

I know ive changed to be a worse person..
I know, u dont have to tell me..
cuz i noticed it myself..

Ive changed to be a worse son to my parents..
Ive changed to be a worse sibling to my brother and sister..
Ive changed to be a worse friend to my friends..
Ive changed to be a worse human to everyone..
Ive changed to be a worse 'Hamba Allah'

And im widely aware that ive done alot of damages..
Sigh..

please.. someone save me again..

i swear i will bring myself closer to god..

Those memories were sweet,

2:03 AM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

My sweater still smells like u..

Those memories were sweet,

10:54 AM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

He may have money
They may have money
He may have a big house
They may have a big house
He may have a big god damn car
They may have a big god damn car
He may have a super big stereo system
They may have a super big stereo system
He may have the future planned with money
They may have the future planned with money

Well i don't think i have anything..
All i have is an average life..
An average family..
A normal life..

But there's one thing that i can give..

The one thing that matters..

The one thing that always did matter..

Its the love i can give..

And i am willin to trade everything i have to live happily..
with no thoughts..
No problems..
With no one fuckin hangin on..

Just you and me..
In our own world..
Our own universe..

Our own..

Those memories were sweet,

10:21 PM

My hands trembled..

My heart beats faster..

My knees go weak..

My eyes go blurry..

My brain doesnt funtion..

My feets cant feel the ground..

My headache grew heavier..

I know u probably dont care at all..

U probably dont even give a damn..

U probably feel nothing..

I didnt wanna make eye contact cuz i know i cant take it..

I didnt wanna say a word cuz i know it will jus hurt..

sweet sweet misery

is this wat u want?

Those memories were sweet,

3:30 PM

Monday, May 14, 2007

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

to mine and all the mothers in the world..

U mean everything to me..

Those memories were sweet,

9:13 AM

have u ever feel so down and everything seems to be so, so wrong..
and everything was fallin apart.. everything u do turns bad even if ur intentions were good.. and when success turns to failure.. and u have no one to turn to..

and then there's you..

Yes im talkin about u guys..

Mannan..
Din..
Izzat..

i might sound really gay now.. but i jus want u guys that im thankful u guys are here..
whenever im down, u guys nvr fails to make me laugh..
even when i was in no mood, u guys nvr fails to try to make me feel better..
and even when i dont wanna go out cuz i was not myself, u guys always forced me cuz u guys was tryin to make me feel myself again..

jus like yesterday when i was feelin so so down then Mannan was there to listen to all my misery.. and i know that he's tryin his best to help me with my probs.. he gave me wisdom words and stuff like that.. he's crap.. he's instincts that always is correct.. And lastly he always gives me really good advice.. good advice that always works..

And yesterday night i was fucked when i was about to sleep but still talkin on the phone with lyra, 'someone' disturbed me with prank calls.. and that someone is Din.. he's makes me laugh so so hard that i think i teared..

And everyday, Izzat makes me laugh.. cuz he is jus plain stupid, :) nah jokin.. Izzat u rock in everyway la.. dont worry, u'll always be my number 1 fan of guitar playin..

thanks u guys

and guys, dont worry im not gay..
im not im not..
im jus happy.. gay=happy
so does that mean im gay? nah..

Those memories were sweet,

8:43 AM

Saturday, May 12, 2007

i miss the 'Roaches' that we've made friends at ECP.. hahah..

Those memories were sweet,

10:26 AM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Do they have higher than cloud 9.?
If they do then i think i could be feelin that..
Can i.?

I seriously had fun just now goin out with you..
Thank u
Its been awhile since i last felt this way..
Thank u
I seriously feel so honoured that u picked me to have ur first bike ride..
Thank u
I feel happy when ure around..
Thank u

ohh tell me, is it too fast?

i feel like a lousy son.. i seriously feel that way..
all that they've done for me to me..
yet .. sigh nvm

Those memories were sweet,

11:37 PM

well im talkin to her right now.. this very moment.. jus listenin to her voice calms me down..

ok damn i don know how i feel now.. tomorrow i got school from 10 till 3.. then after that im goin out.. im wishin tomorrow will be a wonderful day.. i wish i wish..

and so i watched 'jangan pandang belakang' (dont look behind) with the gang.. but izzat wasnt there cuz he had to work.. so yes.. i had fun.. even for the fact that i really miss her haha~

so this guy he called himself *pop* tagged me and said somethings i think is not right to jus shoot anyhow.. ok whoever u are.. don anyhow say ok? i wont get mad, cuz i know it'll be like jus wastin my energy..

ps.. remember u said something about addiction? i think i can feel it now :)

Those memories were sweet,

1:28 AM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

So she helped me do my fucked up blog.. my blog was a mess and now look at it.. its so neat and nice and yes everything's where its suppose to be.. Dont worry :)

i really appreciate it thanz so much.. and im hopin u read this..

Those memories were sweet,

12:55 AM

Sunday, May 06, 2007

tell me is it too fast? tell me.. i need to know.. i need i need..

i don know wat im thinkin.. cuz im still too afraid of fallin in too deep.. call me a fag.. i don care.. im just too afraid..

jus like u said..
u makes me feel happy again.. jus to know that someone cares..
if feels sweet..
cuz i know nobody ever did....

those sweet sweet post.. i cant take it.. i feel aww~ no body ever done that to me before.. :)
honestly.. those words.. they make me melt.. i swear..

will u go to sleep, if i go to sleep?

Those memories were sweet,

12:39 AM

Saturday, May 05, 2007

the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you

Those memories were sweet,

3:02 PM

promise me u wont go away..

promise me u wont..

promise me u wont be like someone i know..

cuz i don like that feelin..

i really don like that feelin..

if u know wat i mean..

i don wanna lose this feelin like someone lost it after promisin she wont..

thats the sweetest thing someone has ever said to me~~

Those memories were sweet,

12:29 AM

Friday, May 04, 2007

I've been crushed like paper

I've been washed like rain

I've been scared of sleeping

In case I wake up the same

I've been broken and battered

I've been lost in my home

I've been cryin' a river

I've been cold as a stone

But falling into you

It carries me far enough away

And everything you do

It lightens up my Darker side of day

I just hope that the wind

Doesn't blow you away

I've been left unattended

I've been thrown like a ball

I've been rolled with the punches

And I didn't feel a thing at all

I've been crossed by the wires

I've been blinded by the light

I've been burnt by the fire

I've been kept out of sight

Those memories were sweet,

11:59 PM

Thursday, May 03, 2007

i still miss u, u know..

sigh

friendster profile, single.. i guess u'll nvr come back..

sigh

i still miss u..

Those memories were sweet,

9:37 AM

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

in case u haven notice..

today is the 1st of may, mayday, labour day..

so that means its exactly 1 month that me and her broke up..

so yea..

Those memories were sweet,

9:30 PM