im so afraid to lose a good friend like him..
someone who thinks alike..
someone who i can laugh with or at..
someone who's always there to lend a helping hand whenever i needed them..
someone who i'd nvr betray..
someone who i always crap with like there's no fuckin tomorrow..
or no lecturer teachin in front of us..


but lately me and him hadnt talk as much like we used to..
laughed like we used to.. laughed at like we used to..
due to some circumstances..
and im afraid that something as bad
as the term 'no longer close friends' be used one day..
too scared that i try my best to let go any anger that i had in me..


i know sometimes i may act as though as im..
the 'big fuck' and act like a dick or a fuckin ego..
it doesnt matter and im sorry i really didnt mean it..
and i god damn know that its hard to find another friend like u..
pardon me if i sound as gay as can be..


and lately this someone has been gettin on my nerves..
im sure u know who the person it..
its not jus because of wat had happened recently..
ive felt this way back when everything was fine..
i may sound like a big jerk but fuck it..
u fuckin cheapo..


ok fuck this i didnt update my blog to talk about some cheapo..
i came to my blog to talk things to myself..
i wont be thinkin whether u'll rad this or not..

cuz i know u nvr come here anyways aha..