Saturday, June 30, 2007

i've been havin weird dreams lately..

Yesterday, i dreamt something about this prom queen.. weird but i guess we laughed too much the other night.. so when i was sleeping, i still wanna laugh my worries away..

and this mornin i dreamt that on this comin wednesday, Shattered Skies's next performance..
Hmm weird but my sister will be singin for us.. HAHA.. of all people my sister? i mean she doesnt even care if we make it big hha.. so y her? ha.. hmm and then when i reached at the venue, all the song that ive learnt for the performance.. suddenly all gone.. and i was panicing.. shit.. i guess thats the worst that could happen.. shit.. hope it wont turn out that way for this wednesday..

Fuck man.. i really wanna play this song... to someone? i dont know.. im feelin happier.. but still im feeling lonely..

Those memories were sweet,

12:50 PM

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

this is who i really am.. according to this hha..

Those memories were sweet,

11:15 AM

This song is about love

and this song is for u

My feelings will all be lost in time

u are so my yesterday's feelings

no more shall i cry

a beautiful last goodbye

Now I can't care to worry

I'm feeling so lonely

Breaking apart all this love in my heart

Those memories were sweet,

3:03 AM

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Shi shang zhi yo mama mei yo mao

yo ma ti hai zhi mei yo mao

ni de mama mei yo mao

Those memories were sweet,

12:13 AM

Monday, June 25, 2007

alright people, now tell me i suckk..
i should have done this a long time ago..

this is my all time fav song..

fuck u, fuck him and fuck this..

Those memories were sweet,

1:46 AM

Had great fun yesterday.. went to Din's family chalet.. joked laughed with mannan, izzat, din, qader and sufian.. everything.. for once it left my mind.. probs.. we played games and stuff like that.. and a suprise thing was that me, mannan and din had to perform in front of Din's family members.. ok not jus family members but all his relatives.. hha. ok it was embarassin i swear.. i keep lookin down while playin the guitar..

it was about 1 plus am we went to the playground at pasir ris park.. we played this spin thingy.. was so fun i almost threw up cuz it was hell dizzy.. then we played the spider web thingy.. once again felt like i was a kid again.. wait, i always feel like a childish kid anyways.. ok nvm that.. i was hopin we could see stuff.. hmm u know stuff at night hha.. would have been excitin if we had seen one.. i guess i could pee in my pants..

anyway, when we were goin back to the chalet we walked pass this big tree with the vines dangling from it.. everything came back to me.. everything.. those times we had fun.. those times we played on the swing.. the 'tail', the pathway we used to walk.. and the first time i held ur hands.. and u asked me whether if i was shy holdin ur hand.. the things we used to disturb each other with.. words..

well i got to snap out of all this shit..

alot of people have been sayin it..

even the great counsellor, janelle helped me..

and i thank all of u

truly..

fuck it

Those memories were sweet,

1:29 AM

Friday, June 22, 2007

**** u tell a tale

I search your words,
Fish for breaks in every line.
You say you'll paint a picture in my mind.
I'm paying attention to details,
And searching for any misleading ideas
You tell a tale.
One grand enough to carry me away.

'Cause I know where you've been,
And I know what you've done with him.
I hope it's worth what we lost.
Take your time with your goodbyes,
'cause this will be the last time
I stand by with eyes closed tight.

And it's hard to know,
If I had caught this months ago.
I could have faced myself,
Saved myself from this disease.
It's killing me faster,
With every single second you are gone.
You needed an answer but when I said,
"yes"I meant "forevermore!"

I look into your eyes
and see that your colors changing
I wish that I could change with you
and when you said forever
did you mean it to be true?
or was it another tale from you?

Those memories were sweet,

2:01 AM

have u ever feel like u hate everything and everyone?

and all u think about is killin someone..

i wish i wasnt so emo

i wish i wasnt so sensitive

i wish i wasnt so fucked

i wish i wasnt so ego

i wish i wasnt so stupid

i wish i wasnt so weak

i wish i was special

Those memories were sweet,

12:53 AM

Monday, June 18, 2007

ok fuck u.. i love this song and no one's gonna stop me..

Those memories were sweet,

1:34 AM

APEK!! APEK!!

thanz to the apek taxi driver that we met the other day, we're all sound like horny bastards haah..

so we performed at liat towers.. the buskin thingy.. the best part is we played one song and people already asked to take pictures with the band hHAHA.. i guess they haven heard how bad we sound YET haha.. so we played 4 covers and all our originals.. total was 12 songs altogether with the acoustic set that we played. and good part.. we got FREE CAKE FOR 2 DAYS HAHA..

right after the buskin we went straight to assplanet.. the whole lot of us sat at the steps we used to sit after i went out with 'her' to radi's gig that we didnt make it cuz we were lost thanz to me.. ok back to the story..

was feelin down AGAIN cuz that place reminds me of the times.. and thanz to them we joked and laughed like nobodies business.. till we died out of tiredness.. even matin, his best friend the sound engineer and his fiance was there.. ok so we played this game usin acoustic.. we were to sit in a circle and continue the song by singin and and thinkin on the spot.. and those who's time run out will have to forfit.. haha

my forfit was to roll down the steps lying down.. izzat's forfit was so fuckin funny that im laughin while typin now haha.. his forfit was to find trouble with a tree. ok that doesnt sound funny at all but i swear if u saw that u'd laugh and pee in ur pants.. he was like a mad guy talkin to the tree hha..

ok now im home feeling sad.. i guess im lonely

Those memories were sweet,

12:43 AM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

hello everyone, my band will be performin at

liat towers (near wheellock)

today and on sunday at 3 to 5.. yea whole 2 hrs of

buskin Shattered Skies..

hope u dont get sick ha. ok ok jokin..

its free so do come down and support..

btw its for charity.. thanks.. any questions jus call me..

till then.. tata..

Those memories were sweet,

4:02 AM

Friday, June 15, 2007

i guess everyone noticed that im back from bangcock..
hmm hell hot down there.. but over all was ok i guess cuz i need that vacation anyway..

the day i was at airport.. i felt a relieve.. a sudden feel of happiness.. feels like the weight on my shoulders suddenly gone.. but when im back again.. it feels heavy again.. sigh..

the trip was great la.. haha.. had fun.. ok its fuckin hot there i swear.. yea.. that there's so many people.. they look like ants when ure at ur hotel room HHAHA.. ok ok.. but there's nothing actually there.. sad to say.. but im glad we had that family trip.. it brings us closer get wat i mean.. family trips i like~ haha

ok the photos will be up another time.. soon

and and btw.. on this saturday Shattered Skies will be perfoming at ngee ann city.. and Sunday is at liat towers.. NOT LIANG COURT.. HAHA.. its free so do come down.. we need support anyway so yea.. im not sure wat time we will be plAyin but if u need details jus sms me haha.. ok call me if u want to.. but only girls allowed AHAH. ok ok jokin.. no i mean it.. haha

ok ok watever it is.. i still love this song to death.. this is the live version..

and still i miss her

sad to say

but dont worry

her careless will make me forget her

Those memories were sweet,

2:27 AM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

**** broke my heart so i broke his jaw

Take apart every piece of this machine
Leave my broken body in the street
I'll stammer drunk and hallow to your doorstep

You'll say
Don't even breathe his name
You'll say
Don't you dare

One shot is all that I would need
Tonight I'll have you on your knees
I'll make you see
I'll have you begging for his life tonight
One shot is all I'd ever need
Tonight I'll have you on your knees
I'll make you believe
I'll make you believe

And now you'll see
Just how desperate that we both can be
And now you'll see
That you could never live
Live without me

One shot is all I that I would need
Tonight I'll have you on your knees
I'll make you see
I'll have you begging for his life tonight
One shot is all I that I would need
Tonight I'll have you on your knees
I'll make you believe
I'll make you believe
I'll make you believe

i so feel just like this song

i'll break his jaw

that z** trip was mend to be our trip..

Those memories were sweet,

3:04 PM

Monday, June 11, 2007

Take a look at yourself

and tell me what do you see

I'd take a bullet for you

you'd put a bullet through me

and as I lay on the floor with this hole in my chest

Can you walk from the truth

with all that blood on your dress

Cause everything that you want

is everything that I need

I would have gave it to you

but you'd have take it from me

and every word that you said

it brought me closer to sin

I close my eyes and pretend its all fading

u killed me

Those memories were sweet,

5:58 PM

Friday, June 08, 2007

ok so many things to blog about but im not sure if i have the time to blog everything..

so many things have happened since..

ok that day, ive been tricked by someone.. whose name is MANNAN.. he asked me out.. so i thought ohh wat the heck.. i need to go get myself that 'the used' cd anyway.. so yea we went to Penin walked ard with no intentions and no destinations watsoever.. walked from guitar stores to guitar stores.. then we went to get my cd at city hall.. then finally we went to starbucks clark quey.. waited for "mannan's friend" whom happened to be Zie.. u idiot mannan haha.. i didnt know.. i was havin migrains.. then i was in no mood cuz i.. i jus have no mood.. then when i look up i saw lyra and zie smilin.. so im was blur one..

she baked me home made cookies. and made me a heart shape card.. ohh my.. no one and i repeat no one in the world has ever done that to me.. ive heard that she cut herself when she was doin that heart shape card. and burnt her hands when she was bakin the cookies.. the cookies was in this jar.. and this jar was in this nicely ribboned box.. i mean omg.. do i even deserve this? im such an ass..

i thank u so so much for all this..

to sara: if ure readin this..

ok i know u wont visit here anyways so.. ohh wat the heck..

ps: love wasnt there for u cuz u pushed love away..

and pls ohh pls karma where are u when u are needed..

ok tell me im bad..

and i found out that taufiq was my old friend who i think he've forgotten.. the one who i think partly cuz of him things changed.. so they're goin out and stuff..

we used to skate together remmeber? remember? with ur cousin Raihan..

damn u..

im leavin at 3 plus.. have to reach the airport by 4 plus i cant rmemeber hha.. ok nvm.. i so cant wait to leave.. i need hols to clear my fuckin mind.. fuckin fucked up mind.. i so cant wait..

so "bangcock" here i come..

I LOVE SPONGEBOOB!

ok i love this song haha.. the meanin is so meaninful

i'll be back to kepp haunting u bastards..

ok fuck u love

Those memories were sweet,

2:05 AM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

dont u ever think that ive forgotten..
another 6mins to 2 months 5 days that u left..
2months 5 days..
waitin and waitin..
and all this while ive been wishin..
that one day, u'd be standin in my frontporch..
but i know u'd never come back..
u'll never come back..

never..

i know u'd never think of me..

u'll never visit here..

A few questions that I need to know

How you could ever hurt me so

I need to know what i've done wrong

And how long it's been going on

Was it that I never paid enough attention

Or did I not give enough affection

Not only will your answers keep me sane

But i'll know never to make the same mistake again

You can tell me to my face

Or even on the phone

You can write it in a letter

Either way i've have to know

Did I never treat you right

Did I always start the fight

Either way i'm going out of my mind

All the answers to my questions I have to find

u hit me hard..
i dont think im ready for another relationship..

but if everything is where it should be now, then y am i still feelin lonely?

y am i still feelin lonely..

Those memories were sweet,

11:41 PM

hell of a day today..
slept at 5am studyin.. ok ok not studyin 100% but play com.. hhaha.. as usual.
then slept for like 2 hrs. then woke up rushed to school. did my fuckin paper.. my classmates went to book computers at the lab.. i did book too.. but in the end i slept all the way.. and when they wanted to leave then i woke up ha.. i thought of goin to radi's place then head back to school for my make up intech class.. but in the end i stay at his place.. playin with his younger brother and sister was hell fun.. when i say hell fun means its damn damn fun hha.. played monopoly, psp games together.. ok la.. alot la.. hhaa its been a while since i had this much fun haha

ok so 16th and 17th of this monthwe're most likely will be performin at ngee ann city and liang court.. wherever that is.. ok sorry i dont go clubin so i dont know. ha.

Those memories were sweet,

2:14 AM

Monday, June 04, 2007

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die;
I'm not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight,
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pygmy sized cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill and spill over and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black, broken heart.
Love is not like anything,
Especially a fucking knife!

god damn u.. i love this song..

Those memories were sweet,

2:32 AM

FUCK IT

fuck it

fuck u

Those memories were sweet,

1:49 AM

Friday, June 01, 2007

this time, im in love with alot of things..

im in love with the song on my blog..

im in love with my bike cuz i jus washed it..

im in love with my glasses cuz i without it i dont know wat i'll do..

im in love with my michelle branch and agnes monica cuz they're my fantasy gfs..

and im in love with my guitar..

ok i sound high..

i think im feelin high now cuz partly im listenin to Canon D classical version and my blog song and i watched 50 first date again after so long.. i forget some parts in the show.. so yea..

and and..

ohh i jus wish my life was like a fairy tale jus like that..

i wish i was.. someone else?

i wish i was someone sweeter. jus like adam sandler on that show.

i wish i was someone more handsome and cuter..

ok ok i sound greedy..

and so I've been fine again.. and this time its worse.. its a $130 fine.. for a stupid things that ive done.. i rode in the bus lane at the wrong period of time.. damn im not workin and things has been actin up again.. and my mum's gonna pay it for me.. but i think im gonna pay her back..

i'll just keep wishin..

and wishin..

Those memories were sweet,

1:57 AM