Sunday, April 22, 2007

i dont know wat else to do.. i dont know wat else to think. i dont know wat else to feel. i dont know wat else to say..

Everything keeps reminding me of her.. From eatin at KFC where she used to disturb me by puttin chilli or mayonaise on my face or hand. From passin by bedok reservoir reminds me of times when we waited for the poor turtles to come out and feed them, but in the end i ate the bread.. and that swing at the reservoir seems so special in a way. remember? east coast, where we sat at the very Burger King where u still disturb me with the mayo. and where u told me u could walk with ur toes. and u showed me how. i tried to walk with my toes too but i jus cant. It rained heavily that day and we sat at the gelare shiverin. i bought u hot chocolate when i didnt even have enough money. i used my dad's money i was supposed to buy stuff he told me to.

That very place where i first saw u, Kallang stadium. Was with Din when i saw u. didnt expect that totally. That first time i asked u out when i had no money, Pasir Ris Park. u gave me this look everytime u see me.. that look that keeps appearin in my head. Walked to the park, always lookin down cuz i was shy.. and u kept disturbin me about lookin down. steppin on squisy green green grass with ur slippers. walkin on the sand at late night, lookin at the trail of foot steps we've made. tryin to discover new words for MOE and new discovery for the Discovery channel on cable and jus lookin at that weird thing we used to call golf course. disturbin the natural habitat, laughin at night, sittin by the rock near the place where u left ur 'TAIL' remember that? sittin on the rock listenin to music like underoath which u don like. Tiger lily which u like.

My friendster profile where u asked me about suckin eggs. u asked me to show u how. and i promised i'd show u one fine day. but i didnt really get to do that. And that very pic of urs, i still remember the caption 'sara'. that very red pic made me click on ur profile. those messages u sent got that word u love to say. 'adore' i still keep them. No, not to make me feel more hurt.. but jus to keep it for memories..

i smiled when i think of the times we used to have..

i wish i didnt took granted of that.

Its hard to say that i was wrong, its hard to say i miss u..

Since u've been gone im not the same..

Taken from Adillah's personal msg..

"Wanna be happy, but yet its not easy.. cuz the one u really love, is the one that'll hurt u the most.."

"And u always hurt the person that love u the most.."

Do you really want to lose it all.?

Those memories were sweet,

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