Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Jus now in the morning Azlin, Linnie, Rachel, Brandan (i don know Rachel and Brandan actually but they seems friendly and Jess told me Rachel will be joinin as an Escape crew) and me went to the airport to send Jess and her family off to Australia, Perth Deadwood..

We'll be missin her.. After all the fun filling days we shared together.. I jus feel like i have known Jess forever sia.. but actually its jus a few months.. She claims that she will be back in Singapore at the end of April.. And thats like a few months away.. Im typing this and im really missin her.. even thought u know she jus left this morning.. Looks like we won't be seein her online for a while..

But im sure i'll send her emails..

Those memories were sweet,

2:18 AM

Friday, January 27, 2006

Hmmmmmm.. totally dissapointed in myself again yesterday.. I failed my 5th Practical.. and Wednesday is my 3th attempt.. If i still fail the 3rd time, i swear i punch my own face 3 times.. My stupidity have arise again.. All that made me fail for the practical was all stupid mistakes..

PS: To all the people out there who lost their love ones family members, friends.. We miss u, u will always be remembered.....

IF I DIE TONIGHT ( too phat )

verse 1 ( Joe Flizzow)

If i die tonight, what would i do on my last day

i know i'd wake early in the morn' for crack of dawn's last pray

then probably go for breakfast like i used to do

fried kuey teow FAM and roti canai at Raju's with my boo

and friends from way back, neighborhood homies, extended fam

They only know me as that same cat, with that shaved head

rocking cross colors sneaks to school

writin' rhymes at the back of class, playin tricks on fools

then i'd come back to the crib, tidy up a bit

y'all know my room's messy though classy

start arrange my ish line up my shoes one by one

start with jordans and end with them air force onces

put a post-it on the tongue of each one with the name of each dun

i think i know my homies and who would want which one

get on the phone and holla' at everybody

it's nearly noon gots to have lunch with the family

then spend the last day i don't know

try do a million other things hoping somehow time will slow

i guess what i'm trying to say is

take everyday like it was your last

work towards your dreams before you pass

and have a blast while you at it

cause we don't know when we gonna go, so make the best of it

just keep it real to yourself and to all people

If y'all lost somebody before remember there'll be a sequel

Chorus

If i die tonight

you know it'll be alright

just smile for me

reminisce the fond memories

Verse 2 (Malique)

Well if i die tonight, i wonder where i'll be tomorrow

nobody cry please, push away the sorrow

cause i ain't been the best of men, the best of friends

the best of mom and daddy's last son

the best of everything, tell joe here's a last one

if i die tonight, would i be forgiven

by all the people i been slackin' with when i was livin'

those who i hurt their hearts, took advantage of and even lied to

hug you one last time for forgiveness, yeah i wolud like to

if i die tonight, would u feel the loss?

tomorrow would you dial my number by accident, then suddenly... pause?

if i die tonight i wonder who would get to keep my caps and shoes, jerseys even my little stuffed crocodile coco too

get my cell phone message everyone from a to z tell em' this ain't malique, he passed away last night, and pray he rest in peace

If i die tonight, would you think of my room when u see blue

wanted to clean it up this morning, but then i never knew

if i die tonight, what would happen to Tim?

how long would it take before she kissed another man?... God damn...

At fast food joints would she still order the same combo meal for two?

things i wish i knew...

Chorus

Verse 3 (malique)

a cute lil' thing to many eyes

to me you were a simply a beautiful thing i tell no lies

we went from mere invisible friends to pals real tight

rendezvous up on the net to chity chat all night

i used to pick you up until you got your own ride,

a slammin' two door whip

a grey 3672 lookin' all slick

remember when i asked why this, you said because it's real fast

so you can rush to see your boy after class

the last time we met was '01 semtember

you left fellin' upset over.. something, i can't remember...

i never apologized till january 10th 2003

when i heard you passed away when i was deep in my sleep

your loss taught me not to take my friends for granted

misunderstandings gotta slam it quick, death you never plan it

you're sorely missed down here wawyn, rest in pesce

this too shall pass, but our true friendship will never cease...

Love...

Chorus

END

And to yadi's father.. Those who read this please give them 1 minute of silence......................................................................................................

Dedicated to:
Mohamed Jaffar Bin Ali

13 November 1951 to 27 January 2006

MAY U REST IN PEACE..

WE'LL MISS U..

Those memories were sweet,

4:28 PM

Thursday, January 26, 2006

So.. Wat Fun i had Today.. Its jus fun, fun, fun.. haha.. Went to take my ITE cert early morning today.. Meet Mell and Kaili.. These 2 crazy girls aha.. Drives me nuts.. ahha.. they finish their staff meetin at around 10.. Wat crap?? haha.. Anyway, i just got dressed when they called me.. Mell says we'll meet at our school.. I took my time, combin my hair.. LOL.. ended up with a piece of crap on my head.. my hair sucks.. haha.. I need to go cut it short.. haha.. At around 10.30 then i came out from my house.. Usually it takes the 21 bus to reach my school about 45 mins from my house.. And as expected.. I reach at 11.15 sharp.. ahha.. Cool time management huh?? haha..
When i reached there, Mel and Kaili were at the canteen.. They took their cert already..So i came to the office, took my cert and laminated it.. WOW.. i didnt believed that i got 3.0 for my average GPA.. This is fuckin exciting.. I did well for my model making and presentation drawing.. For once im proud of myself.. haha.. Kiddin.. Anyway, i got 3.5 for my last term so.. 2.5+3+3+3.5=12 12/4=3.. haha thats how i get 3.. ehhe.. ok forget it.. u probably don't understand.. Anyway back to the story, We waited for Mr Sim our fav teacher.. haha.. He took us go eat at ... by car.. Somewhere la.. I don know the name..

Mell treat us all.. Thanz Mell.. hehe.. Mr Sim told us he just retired.. He says its good that he's retired cuz he said he'll get stress again teachin people like us.. I still remember, the first time i saw him.. He reminds me of PRINGLES.. U know, that cracker.. " Once u pop, u cant stop".. Yup thats it.. haha.. He's face look exactly like the cartoonic face on the cover of the packaging.. Not not kiddin man.. haha..
Then after eatin, we went to Bugis.. Mr Sim sent us then he went off.. how nice of him to send us.. He told us that whenever we need transport, jus call him and he'll drive us there.. Since he retired already and don have nothing to do at home.. haha.. He meant sacasticly i think.. haha.. We went there and i followed Mel and Kaili go shopping (girl's hobby) haha.. We walked all over bugis.. Well, they bought some stuffs.. We then head for PS.. (Plaza Singapura).. They took very long on this one particular store.. LP zone.. almost took one hr.. haha.. Walked around some more then i had to leave cuz i got motor practical.. i didnt wanna leave actually.. haha..
I went off 1hr and 10 mins before the practical start.. Thought the journey would be long cuz office hours jus ended.. But unfortunely i reached there and i still have 30 mins to spare.. So much for good time managing.. Fuck.. haha.. i wanted to stay with them longer but reaching the early is better than reaching ther late.. Right??
When the time comes my whole body was shaking cuz i was very nervous because the practical was actually a test.. To my surprise, i did my practical smoothly.. when i came to figure-8.. (the one i wrote earlier on another entry and i had fell alot of times) I surprisely did very good.. haha.. but then one i always do well, (the slalom, Its particulaly some cones aligned next to the other.. and we have to ride pass them like a snake.. as in maneuver thru them) i terribly did wrong.. fuck me.. i hit the 3rd cone and that consider immediate fail.. SHIT.. i totally drop my hopes of passin haha.. So, i failed that night.. Waste my money only man.. Tomorrow im having my 2nd attempt.. Wish me all the best la.. hehe..
Btw, Jess's leaving in 3 Fucking days.. So fast.. Will definitely miss her man.. She's leaving for Australia on the 30th of this month at 9.00am.. Aya..

Those memories were sweet,

1:28 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Nothing great has happened today.. Woke up late.. Sit in front of the computer all day.. Not all day la actually.. haha.. Msged Pammie jus now when i came back from revision at around 10 something.. i used websms after i reach home.. cuz i exceed my sms already!! So fast sia.. Aya.. Did alot of mistakes for my revision.. HATE myself at that moment haha.. Didnt signal properly.. Didnt do well on the plank.. Didnt do this correctly, didnt do that correctly.. was wrong with me today?? Maybe love sick?? haha FUCK..
Ohh by the way, a girl i know from 'My Space' last year, msged me yesterday..
She add me on my space last year.. She's a gothic ar.. But thats not the point.. Some time ago.. I think its before new year.. So that means its last year.. She's online then she say something like this----> "I did it.. I STABBED HER.." I thought she joking.. I was like "U're joking right? Nice try".. But then she seems not to be joking.. And then i realize she was sayin the truth.. WTF?? She said she stabbed a girl that makes her life miserable or something like that.. Stabbed from the back..
She sometimes asked me out to go jammin with her and stuff like that.. Asked me to go to her performance.. She asked me out more than 5 times if im not wrong.. I didnt even met her ONCE.. haha.. She creepy man.. Scary man..
She msged me yesterday asked me to help her cuz she claimed that the girl she stabbed asked her friends to find her.. Why does it have to be me?? I then replied "Berani buat berani tangung".. "if u have the guts to do it, you must have the guts to face it".. Something like that.. haha.. True wat?? Right?? Am i that mean?? I just don want to get myself involved in these things..
And for those are wondering who she is, Come to my friendster, then go to Friends of mine.. find ARY.. Yup thats her name.. And if U are reading this jus keep it to yourself k?? haha..

Those memories were sweet,

1:26 AM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Yesterday was OK.. aha.. When to Singapore Poly with Melissa and Kaili.. Then meet the others at Jurong Point.. haha.. Long time never meet up with them and the others.. Like so COOL..
Me, Mell and Kaili was supposed to meet up at Dover train station at 4.30.. But i reach at around 4.40 plus.. Thought i was the late one but then when i reached there..There was no one there.. Mell msged me later saying that they will be reachin there abit late.. I waited there for like 25 to 30 mins all alone.. So lonely, but luckily i brought my best friend along.. Not my glasses.. My ipod.. haha.. I don scold them for being late la, cuz i know they got reason.. They went to trim and dye their hair.. So ya.. But if they got no resson be to late also i won't scold them la.. Come on man, im a kind-hearted and a noble person.. WTF?? haha Joking..
So back to the story.. When they reached there, we went straight to Singapore Poly.. The open house was ok la.. Not so great.. aha.. The people there talked to us bout the courses.. So hard to choose sia.. So many courses.. IF i can go poly la i meant.. But then again i wish i can go poly.. My plan was to go poly after ITE, then go ns straight after finishing it.. So maybe start working after that.. HECK.. aaha.. Then after we finished all that, we went to jurong poin to meet with the others.. Ming Kun, Chung Siong, Qiyin, Sarah, Su, Nora, Alwi, and Daya..
Saw the others and i swear they looked more mature than they used to look.. LOL.. haha.. Especially Sarah and Ming Kun.. WTF?? haha.. They looked formal.. WTF am i talkin?? Well of course they do.. They just came back from the ceremony for taking the cert of finishin ITE.. Which Mell, Kaili and i DIDNT GO.. haha.. Too lazy u see.. We went there, ate and walk around there.. Took pictures together.. But then Mell and kaili have to head for Bugis for something.. Then, i disturbed Ming Kun.. We went in Toys'r'us played the toys there.. LOL.. aha.. Sometimes i wish to be a kid back.. cuz being a kid, life is so fun fillin.. like u don need to think of this and that.. NO STRESS.. haha.. PLAY AND HAVE FUN 24 7.. aha.. Am i right or wat?? haha.. Then i disturbed Ming Kun again.. So fun disturbing him.. Then he'll be like disturbin me back.. haha.. We're like so called best friends u see.. Share all the same interest together.. And we LOVE TALKIN COCK together.. ahha.. i miss those days at school.. And we'll be like talkin while the teacher is teachin.. Haha..
Anyway, then the malays have to leave.. Its just me and the chinese only.. But i look like a chinese so i blended in.. haha.. Walked around some more.. Then they too have to leave.. So i decided to go meet up with Mell and kaili again cuz i don wanna go home too early and i forgot to take my things from Kaili.. I put my things in Kaili's bag.. Met them and i followed them go shop.. We ate at Burger King and chat for a while about wat course to take and all.. And then finally we went back.. Overall was fun la..
I noticed something when i was with them at Jurong Point.. It seems like the malays except Sarah and Su are like abit racist.. Well, thats wat i think only la.. And some more i feel like they're like abit proud.. Mell and i thought so.. haha.. I HATE RACISM.. haha.. Anyway thats all what i have to say.. I need to go sleep cuz tomorrow im workin.. ahha.. So sweet dreams everyone.. haha..

Those memories were sweet,

1:20 AM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Besides my guitar and music thats keeps me alive are these.. The ones on the pic.. haha.. Just kiddin.. Just took out some Expired Medicines.. Wanted to throw away but, like usual.. Just for the fun of it, i took some pics haha..

Went to CDC (Comfort Driving Centre) just now.. Was happy cuz i passed my 4th practical.. Btw i met Farhan from Escape.. He want to take revision for his 5th Practical.. Wednesday is his Practical.. Anyway back to the story, whole thing was ok.. Speed till around 55km/hr at a straight road.. haha FUN.. hehe.. Actually we are not supposed to speed.. But naughty me always do the opposite of wats being told.. haha.. Anyway, then if im not wrong the third time i speed, one on the instructor saw me and he showed signs asking me to slow down.. haha.. I just smiled back and slowed down.. hehe.. Droped to 2nd gear, but then speed up again when not being seen.. hehe.. NAUGHTY ME NAUGHTY ME.. hehe..

Chatted with Is from Escape Irritating guy haha.. i keep telling myself, this guy is JUST GAY man.. haha.. Sorry to say to u, Is but u are like that sometimes.. hehe.. Arrrrhh.. Just kiddin.. ahah.. He kept saying sayang to me?? wtF?? aha.. But i guess he's just playin.. And i kept tellin him, he's a guy with pussy haha.. No offence.. He send me a testimonial on Friendster saying all the SISSY stuff and that if i didnt accept the testimonial, he'll gonna spit out my secret.. WTF?? haha.. Hey!! thats a threat man.. haha.. But still i accept.. hehe..

I LOVE THIS PHASE.. "Kill me while i still believe that u are meant for me" got that from a song.. COOL song indeed hehe.. So damn meaningful..

Those memories were sweet,

1:16 AM

Monday, January 16, 2006

Its been a while since i last blogged.. so ya.. aha.. Tomorrow im having my motorcycle 4th practical.. I SO am ready for it.. haha..

Just now i spent some of my work salary to treat my uncle's family and my family at KFC, as i promised them earlier when i started working at escape.. Felt good even when i came out with a sum of money.. Cuz it was like HISHAM BELANJA.. WOW COOL ahha.. For like the first time treat them eat.. I meant belanja a large number of people.. And they was like thankin me.. haha.. Hey, im not stingy.. If i have extra money i belanja friends and family.. but the thing is there's no such thing as EXTRA MONEY.. haha.. Ohh well..
And after all that, my brother, sister, her husband and me went to my brother in law's house.. As in his family's house.. But my brother and me was send by car by my dad.. And my sister and her husband by motorcycle..
Bth of us reach first so wewent up first.. chat with his mum from then on, we played their xbox like we never play games before.. haha.. cuz we don have xbox at home.. just ps2, but its been collecting dust since.. god knows when.. we was like so "JAKUN" haha.. I don know how to explain that in english.. haha.. Sorry.. I didnt wanna go home.. hehe.. I had fun just now so ya.. FUN..
Wish me luck tomorrow.. hehe.. Out..

Those memories were sweet,

12:52 AM

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Whooo.. I think i have a crush on someone.. haha.. After all the miserable stuff ive been thru.. U know, with Aili and before that Sarah when i was in ITE..

That pic on the right is Sarah and her guy, Rozaime.. Beautiful ain't they?? haha.. Anyway i admit that wat i felt for Sarah was wordless.. I waited her for like 1year 6months to be exact.. I used to tell myself that she was worth the wait..

She seems so perfect.. btw she's mixed too just like me.. Thats y she look like chinese.. I think she knows that i....(u know wat i mean), but Ohh well.. I finally, i gave up cuz she look so happy with her guy.. And i know her guy is a good and kind person.. So i guess i have to stop cuz i just wanna make feel her happy.. Sarah, if u are reading this just so to let u know, i just wanna wish u and him the best.. Hope the both of u will go far in life together.. :)

Its coming again.. Weeeeee.. I don wanna name the person cuz maybe.. just MAYBE she could jus read it.. Don think that im a coward or anything.. I just need the right timing to tell her.. Get it?? I jus love talkin to her in Msn, face to face or jus msges.. She's pretty, cute.. everything.. haha.. And i like her hair too, So nice.. And its suits her well.. She's chinese.. Funny, but i don know y but i always have a crush on chinese girls.. haha.. U can ask all my friends, they know.. Lets just see where this heads ok??

Anyway, i don wanna get too mushy so ill end up here.. See u guys tomorrow.. Sweet dreams..

Those memories were sweet,

1:59 AM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Today is all about my guitar.. Played my guitar the whole day.. Raining the whole day today, u see.. And was so freakin cold, i took out my blankie, wrapped myself with it.. So i was really damn bored.. Nothing to do.. Msg Pammie just now.. Then i think she was busy.. So, ohh well..

Then played my darling till around 8 plus.. Played lots of song together.. haha.. Talked to her like a moron.. My friends think im crazy when they saw me talkin to her the other day.. haha.. My reply was.. "She's my girlfriend coming to 4 years and still on.. Felt stupid but i think i hurt her.. There's no way i can get another to be that long.. Anyway, she's my only one.. The only one thats loves me, and i know it.. she's the one who will cheer me up when im down.. haha..

Nicola's guy jus called me like some stupid scolding me while im typing this.. He said stop disturbing Nicola.. OK, i know la he's her guy but then im just her Escape Theme Park's friend wat?? Can't friends msg??.. Btw Aili told me that he's a horny guy who asked around people for sex?? Wat the hell?? Guys these days.. haha.. Makes me laugh la.. And he asked me where i lived.. He says he wanna meet me.. Ok i admit im a lover not a fighter.. But then again i can still stand for myself.. So FARK OFF BITCH!!

Anyway, its over.. I don wanna talk about it.. Just forgive and forget.. Thats what i always tell myself all the time..

Those memories were sweet,

6:39 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Ohh.. Irritating feelin.. I got toothache.. My last tooth is so painful.. its swellin i think.. Noo.. My greatest fear.. FACING THE DENTIST..

To be honest.. Im a dentophobia.. Im afraid of dentist.. Yesterday, i went to see the dentist.. he's a nice guy anyway.. He said i have 2 option.. First option is to go for root canal.. the other is to jus extract the tooth.. that means jus pull out the tooth.. But he said doin the root canal is more better.. Im still young and its not good if i pull out the tooth.. its SO SCARY man.. haha.. serious.. He said don need to be scared.. cuz when he inject me, i won't feel a thing.. but im still scared.. And btw its expensive to go for the treatment.. My mum and Jess also said its better if i go for the treatment.. So i think ill go for it.. But pls don't scold me if i punch the dentist if it gets too painful.. What the hell.. haha.. NO PAIN NO GAIN.. Thats what Jess told me.. haha.. I think i'll sign off now..

Those memories were sweet,

4:05 PM

So, here i am.. my first post for my new blog.. hehe.. COOL.. i wanted a blog for so long and now i finally got it.. Thanz to Pammie and Jess.. haha.. I envy la those people who got blog and very long post.. Thats y i got myself my own..

Anyway, its exactly 1 oclock in the morning according to my clock.. im sittin in front of the com.. What the hell!! tomorrow's hari raya haji.. time flies.. Got to go pray tomorrow.. WAH!! Early in the morning must wake up.. So lazy.. But i have to.. Too bad.. haha..

Just now i went for my motocycle practical, and finally.. For trying it for like the FORTH time i passed.. haha.. This suck man.. My friends tried only for 2 times and he passed.. WTF.. haha.. I falled for like 2 times.. luckly only twice.. That time i falled for like 4 times.. so paise sia.. haha... Centre of attraction.. haha.. Maybe because of the rainy season.. Raining almost every single freaking day.. Then the roads all like so slippery and at the sides got puddles.. haha.. Anyway i have to go.. Too tired la.. Later tomorrow cannot wake up.. haha..So ill end here.. Night everyone..

Those memories were sweet,

12:59 AM